At the dolphin panel right now. Firdt time seing them up close!
Still no progress
It is frustrating for us, and i cannot justify my actions. What i’m doing is definitely wrong. But you couldn’t have expected any differently right? You’re a fool if you did.
And once again, you don’t hear the answers you want. I understand your frustration, but i dont feel sorry for you. Every action has its consequences. If you cant even stand it now, how are you gonna tolerate the months ahead?
For me, i also know that a lot of negative emotions will be coming my way. I also wish to push such a miserable life as far behind as possible.
It isn’t possible.
But i believe that one day i will be exhausted from fighting and just sucuumb to the learned helplessness. When that finally happens, you can rejoice. I will also rejoice, because running out of fucks to give is a better alternative than trying to fight back constantly, better than acting like a raging demon.